So I’ve been feeling a little under the weather lately.
Doesn’t feel like many things are going right. Or do we blame it on the haze that things look fuzzy now 😦
I’ve been feeling frustrated; mostly at myself. I questioned if I had grown.
Whether my progress at pole was fast enough. Or at least, acceptable in my standards. I started asking if I had talent in this. Did I work hard enough? I thought that as long as I kept going, I’d get better. I do, but not as good as I thought I’d be.
The earlier terms were fun. This term (Term 5) seemed like a struggle. My sis and I had decided to move on from Easy to Intermediate, and this term we have two routines to get used to. Firstly, the tricks are harder and I keep injuring myself (improper techniques) and the more I try, the more frustrated I get. It’s mixed with disappointment and anger. It feels like I’ve stagnated. Often, I thought I had put in effort.
Right now, I’m just trying to persist. I would like to practise more (but it hurts).
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I’m forcing myself to take one step at a time, believing that one day I would get there.